Tuesday, March 29, 2005
today was... ok lah... but i really owe my debate teammates an apology. i mean all of them. i had completely nothing to talk about if it werent for the fact that my teammates passed me quite a sum of rebuttals and rose marie came up with a point about antibiotics. if i were given a chance to redo it, as in everything i said and did, but still witht the same points, im ready to bet i would have done a lot better. my debate was shit and our team was in its absolute most crappiest state. and i know it is all because of me. i'm too playful and seriously find it damn difficult to concentrate on the task at hand.
went to j8 after school with rachelli. she needed to get uhu glue and yellow paint because she had already finish her yellow paint doing the bloody irritating aep thing where we had to cut out 7 by 7 cm of a page of magazine, paste it on the exact same spot on an a4 sheet of art block exactly where it was on the magazine page, draw out the rest of the magazine page and then paint it to look exactly like the page. damn difficult lah! must paint a 7 by 7 cm area by tomorrow and i havent even started yet! i'm so gonna die...
sometimes i think if i just died it would be better. i wouldnt need to put up with materialistic crap that helps us waste away our lives. i develop a fobia if i think about death for too long. its infuriating. i used to think 'what's so scarry about death?!' but i'm not too sure about that now... friends and materialistic items keep me going on but what is life really? if i were an animal or anything that is not a human, i wouldnt have to worry about these things. why? cuz only humans have souls.
is it really fair?
Posted by Ce at 6:28 pm